“Trust in the LORD with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding” (Proverbs 3:5 NIV)
Moving...Just the word can send shivers down the backs of those with physical limitations right? Well that is where I am at the moment. With very little help. I have had many times during this move, where I sat and just cried. Feeling so incredibly overwhelmed and physically drained; not knowing how on earth this is all going to get done. I had a permanent knot in my stomach for two months.
During prayer one day I started to laugh. It was like I was trying to catch the wind. I saw how completely out of control I truly was. How I was being tossed here and there by everyone. I had to release the control. No one was listening, the “world” did not care that my husband and I have disabilities. However, I know the Lord cares for us and He knows our situation. The knot was loosening when I put my hands in the air and laid the situation at His feet. I still have not had many people offering to help, but I know in the end it will turn out all right.
This is yet another lesson in control and the lack thereof. . Those with physical limitations know first hand the release of control even over to the simplest things in life. If we don't release the control over to the Lord we will suffer inside and be filled with anger, bitterness and sadness. We don't have to understand, I don't think we always do, but we must be obedient to Christ. A real lesson in trust and faith, that many don't ever experience. I feel afraid now at times, with so much going on, but I heard someone say, “when you are overwhelmed just, do the next thing” and in time it gets done!
Lean on my own understanding? Well that causes nothing but heartache and anger. I don't understand why people do what they do. I had to learn to forgive their ways, mourn the loss and move on. I also believe that when we pull out the weeds they can be replaced with beautiful flowers.
Kelly Ehrhardt, her husband and their new blessing Aria, reside in the big apple. They live there with their three spoiled cats. Kelly has fibromyalgia and her husband has MS, but the blessing is they both can share every moment of every day with their beautiful daughter.
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