He Saw Me Win!

“But the eyes of the LORD are on those who fear Him,
       on those whose hope is in His unfailing love,” ~ Psalm 33:18

Disappointment: the effect of unmet expectations.

I was officially disappointed this evening after playing an online game similar to Wheel of Fortune. I play to keep my mind alert, to improve my vocabulary and spelling skills and to keep myself from early dementia!

If I completed ten rounds successfully, I would win the entire game! You can imagine how excited I was with just one letter left to solve before capturing it all! I clicked on the correct letter; the blank space filled ever-so-beautifully and…and…a giant button popped up reading “Play Again”.

What?!! I expected at least a “Congratulations!” or a “Way to go, Dude!” with some fireworks or as a minimum, a yellow smiley face! Instead, I got an in-your-face pop-up button telling me to try again!

As a last ditch effort to salvage a celebration from this winning experience, I called out to my family and told them of my awe-inspiring achievement. No one responded with a victory dance. No one so much as said boo. It suddenly occurred to me that even my closest loved-ones could care less that I won a game. It was a total victorious emotional washout.

The fact of life is this: even those closest to me won’t always get how I feel, how I hurt, how I need their understanding and encouragement. People have their own struggles and issues, which consume their thoughts and time. So where does that leave me, alone and forgotten? Hardly.

My God sees me and cares about every detail in my life; from each sleepless night to every good moment lived with less pain.

I can visualize myself standing on a spot-lighted stage receiving from God’s hand, a trophy of acceptance and a smile of approval for enjoying this moment in my life. He saw me win, not just a word game but a victory over depression and chronic pain and He is celebrating with me!

About the Author:

Pastor Greg Harvey lives in Kansas City , Kansas and manages degenerative disk disease with two unsuccessful lumbar fusions and cervical degeneration. His book, “Finding God Faithful in Turbulent Times” is now available in electronic Adobe PDF form and may be obtained by contacting him at gregoryharv@gmail.com